"MAUIS ONLY CHICANA MURALIST"

...yeha! like the sound of that (((:

when I search 'narvaezaloha' on YouTube, this pops up...
something I do in-between paint sessions (;

Or at least in-between my Still dealing with the identity issues. And not at all a good time to be without my identity...everything is NOT smelling of roses...more like the flowers that sit in the same water for years...total mess. Without going into long version...I'm currently without a valid ID, expired everything, and the DMV cost me over $200...just because they thought I could get $2K by the time my temporary DL expired (yes they have now renewed it 3 times instead of giving me a hard copy, they feel this long wait is much better!) I am expected to pay an obvious error of $2K in child support...even though the CSEA here shows I've not been required to pay because my sons almost 20!! But I'm in Hawaii and the CSEA is in CA...so flying there to correct this error and the one with Vital Records in CA, is my only solution. 

It's been a long 2yrs without being able to properly run my businesses (thank gawd I'm self-employed!!), get a checking for my new business (thank gawd I had gotten a personal account before my temporary expired!!), can't use my vocational licenses (need ID to get insured!!), can't rent a car (had to ride bike when my brakes went out!!!), and ready? I can't even go to a bar...I can't go to a nightclub with friends, can't purchase a bottle of wine at the food store...no fun. Not that I need alcohol to have fun...but when you've worked all day on a ladder in the hot sun...a nice cold one is sometimes what makes the long hard work seem complete...a mini toast to myself hehe. But thanks to some awesome friends, I'm managing through it everyday. The hardest part is not being able to visit or travel with my kids. 

Although, the identity thing has been a thorn in my side...have to tell you, things are going rather well with the art scene! People have actually been sending me encouragement!! I was very touched by one particular message just a few weeks ago. A boy (who's now my age!) I went to school with (since elementary!) noticed my post/gripe about my longing to see my son and know my true identity...and because of this identity issue, state of Hawaii is not letting me free. He messaged me and offered to pay my full airfare to see my son and fix these issues!! I just stopped in my tracks, put down the phone, and cried. And at first, it wasn't because I was going to see my son, no I cried because there's hope in this world. Someone who liked my art, and remembered me...reached out. far out. Of course I quickly tried to remember if I was ever mean hearted or rude, wanted to apologize right away if I had been...but thankfully, I remembered how shy he was...me too! haha...who would have thought all these years a little boy I used to talk story with occasionally at school among friends...would tap me on my shoulder and hand me my life back....see kids, it pays to treat others with kindness and sincerity....not being a bully actually saved me years later!! 

So to all you bullies that are thinking about making fun of someone or hurting someone....you may need help someday in a big way and knowing you were a decent person who genuinely cared...people remember that stuff!! I think people who don't forgive bullies should take notice too because when someone grows up to be mature enough to apologize for their wrongs years later...you can use that opportunity to build character and can also grow mature enough to accept it...from a wiser more mature person. Maybe that bully grew up to show his/her children that forgiveness is possible. I'm stating this because I did it. I ran into a friend I went to school with and had embarrassed at a party in front of a ton of people. And all these years I regretted it, thought about it, prayed on it....until one day I had the chance, my daughter there to witness. I cried and hugged the lady in the parking lot of the Westin explaining how sorry I was to be so cruel and how I missed her friendship all these years...and she forgave me (mahalo!!!) I was so happy, and my daughter was proud of me, which made the moment even better. After that release, I tried to reach out to a couple friends on FB who had really broken my heart after graduation...but all they both did is show how much they didn't miss my presence posting pics of things I was never a part of....it hurt..but I was still free, no more guilt, and my hurt turned to realization...that some people just don't know how to accept forgiveness...they ignore it because they can't figure out how to approach it maybe? Anyway, I'm rubber they're glue whatever they do bounces off me and belongs in a zoo hehe...I just pray they learn to love and let go, like I have (and strive to everyday!) & help spread more love in this world. I'm not perfect and at 40ish, I'm no where near it /:  But I try and try to keep getting back on that horse because I know enough pain and want no part of it.

Probably wondering how I'm going to get on the plane, me too!! My friend told me no need to have ID...but with all the security nowadays...I'm going to DMV again to see if they'll cut me some slack to at least get on the plane to fix this whole mess! Heads will spin (legally!) if they deny me. Now, I not only need an ID, DL, but I need a passport for my newest hat; Lead Muralist for 'Project W.A.L.L. - Jamaica' yeah!!!! I am leading the PW Team towards Jamaica in 2016...and first on checklist---valid passport. Otherwise, I will need to train someone for the work overseas to assist me from there while I connect from here...so we'll see how things go. Hawaii Mural Arts is giving me a great opportunity to travel, perform live art, kokua my community, and make my mark on this planet both physically and mentally. It's the first adventure overseas in years, very excited to be traveling in the name of art!!! And with the top Muralists on island---or the world! depending on how far HMA can reach wall artists via www! Check out my work posted on the HMA site; www.himuralarts.com

I am supposed to be adding the prospectus for the first Muralist Exhibition in April of 2016...but I've been trying to get plans under way for friends of Jamaica here on island who are having tough times being away from family living through cancer. Medical bills are piling and something needs to happen quick to send kokua. So we decided to mesh fundraising for this first PW Fundraiser on Valentines Day. I just posted an ad for what we need in the next few weeks from community and Maui ohana in order to send kokua (help) fast;

Well, guess that's it for now...gotta work on the prospectus so Muralists on Maui have a chance at being selected for our journey overseas. I'll post more about it as it gets closer. Wish I had more time to explain some other blessings; Ethiopian murals, teenage drivers, new apprentices, art/anatomy workshops (CHECK CRAIGSLIST FOR 'ANATOMY IN PAPERMACHE' WORKSHOPS IN JAN/FEB!!), new friends, new projects, massage book coming soon!!, realtors exam....and much more! 

Heres a new time-lapse I recently did on New Years Eve of Carlos Santana...I actually met an audio tech that works all the big shows on island...so he's worked with Santana before!! I asked him to "PLEASE CONSIDER ME for whatever I can lift or help move on the day of his show!!" Maybe he thinks I'm being another roadie, but I'm really sincerely trying to get my name out there as a professional live artist...not a screaming fan who wants to smell Carlos' shoes after the show..eu...not me, promise. I do however want to amaze him if that's even possible! Just figured, IIIIII'm Mexican, heeee's Mexican, IIIII'm an artist, heee's an artist...hes on a conscious vibe, I'm consciously vibing positives hehe...

I'd like to not only be a live artist...but I'm hoping to be the kind who can travel and perform at various concerts and shows...and not just perform live painting, but live art in general!! Larger than life sculpting on stage anyone?? Now, who's doing that at a music concert? or how about someone on those large screens in New York everywhere? I want to go big and blow artistic minds!! Let's put the statue of liberty in a grass skirt, fill the room with blow up pool toys in the name of commercialism, or would anyone like me to swim in a large plexiglass filled tank and paint underwater...I'll also sky dive from a plane dressed as a pig if it brings awareness to a great cause!! My point is, no hesitations for me this year, no holding back with anything, it's time to shine. Whether tour managers request my work or not, I'm an artist who's game is on....and I'm in it to win it baby.

See you on the other side,

~M.